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it’s amazing, how something in liquid form can be converted into something solid yet elastic. try stretching a rubberband with both hands. isn’t it wonderful. you know what is more wonderful than that? humans. we are so much more flexible and stretchable than any rubberband i know. we bend back and forth, side to side in our daily existence on this physical plain. we stretch ourselves to meet deadlines, to meet customer needs and demands, to meet our superior’s expectations and many more. we even stretch ourselves, for our spouses and significant other.

what happens to a rubberband, which has lost it’s elasticity to stretch? it breaks and one hand holding the rubberband is going to get hurt real bad. so do human beings. there is only so much we can take before we begin to feel the strain. if we break, someone is bound to be hurt and my guess is, the person would be you. stretching moderately over a long period of time seems a better option than stretching all out in a short span of time. a rubberband, conditioned by repetitious short stretches will be able to take the strain better later. this is sometimes, not an option in our daily life.

so how do we cope then? i think there is one word, which throughout history has been the single cause of many wars, feuds and death. are you wondering what that word might be? guess no more. it’s the word ‘NO’. no, i will not bow to your demands. wham! war breaks out. no, i will not share my grazing land. bam! two shepherds feud and fuss over the right to the land. no, i will not give you my money. whack! baseball bat to the head and you’re dead (or a vegetable).

learning to say ‘no’ is difficult, but it will save your dearie one day from all the sh*t it will put you through. maybe, just maybe, i will learn to master the NO kung-fu. people have approached me and said that i’m too nice. i should say no and not be taken for a ride. well, maybe i should take their advice seriously and start saying no. so here goes, no, No, nO, NO, NOOOoooo!~

that did feel much better  v^.^

P.S. i thought i’d leave a note for some “friends”. yes, i can be nice and accomodating, but if you abuse that. don’t come b*tching to me about how i am cruel and heartless. i WILL rip your heart out and feed it to the dogs and spit on your still-warm body. to my “friends”, you know who you are and i am WATCHING you. karma baby, what goes around comes around.

no i’m not dead…yet. as i sit here staring at my monitor, feeling the cold draft from the central air-conditiong unit. i am slowly drifting away in becalmed seas. the setting: a boat floating in the endless ocean. water as far as the horizons. the deafening silence is occasionally interrupted rudely by the waves lapping against the boatsides. a few flying fishes glide out of the water into the air, escaping the barracudas chasing it. the sails hang limp and lifeless. soon there will be a breeze to fill those sails and once again they will flap wildly in the strong Pacific wind.

i can almost imagine how columbus must have felt. this almost feels like it came off a movie set. i’m thinking Tom Hanks in Castaway. now, back to the story. i’m headed to the most isolated cluster of islands in the entire world. nothing but white sands squirting between my toes. turquoise waters, lush green palm fronds swaying in the salty ocean breeze. a nice glass of Hard Rock cafe’s Cecil Iced Orange Clove Tea. i am so there now.

what would i need for survival. a partner to share it all would be nice. the sea would provide me with the freshest catch each day. water would come from a hill-fed spring or river. none of that polluted crap in the city and it’s outskirts. a guitar and a beach hut. life ala Robinson Crusoe.

i am so tempted to drop everything and chase these dreams, right about now. somebody wake me up to reality. here i am back at my freezing cubicle staring at the monitor all along. live plays games on you, all the time.

to have loved, is better than not. to not have loved, is to not have lived.

to have found someone special and spent good times with them, even for a brief span of time, is better than to have not made the first move. carpe diem (seize the day).

do you believe in bad relationships? from my perspective, the relationship is not bad, as there would have been a reason, why two individuals connected together. things just didn’t go as planned.

i don’t usually like to talk about my job, but today was special. a little background. i work in a multinational company as a Technical Support personnel. life isn’t so bad since my previous job dealt primarily with customers, who don’t want to pay their dues. i take all the ups and downs in my daily stride, but sometimes you just need to let it out. ya know.

so i come in to work early hoping to clear all my stuff pending from yesterday. the thing about supporting other countries, is that you are assured of issues coming in way past my bedtime. so there were some requests and some calls. right, prepare for battle. i open the first case and noticed that the user wanted the request done like 2 days ago. i only got the call this morning. you know that feeling that, shit is about the hit the fan? i got that feeling after reading up on this case. not a way to start my morning. so i double-check to see if it’s been resolved. well duhhh, obviously. not wanting to be neither, the scapegoat nor the sacrificial lamb, i threw back the responsibility of communicating with the user to the helpdesk. t’was their fault right. they jolly well clean up the mess.

ahh, finally some peace. i thought i’d kick back and enjoy the silence while performing my daily ritual of backing up servers. alas, ‘they’ dropped another bomb. a high priority call, which means life or death (usually death for obvious reasons), for any non-tech support people. i scramble to resolve this major mundo call. now, i shouldn’t even have to bother about high priority calls, but since some shuffling on my higher level of support, i have absorbed some of their tasks as well. checked on everything i could and everything looks fine. suspicious, but still looking fine. hmm…wonder what could be the problem. well, turns out i was barking up the wrong tree, so to speak. again the helpdesk has made life more colourful for me, by throwing me of the track. they sent me on a wild goose chase by providing me with a totally different device name. wow, just wow. so they wanna play hide and seek now eh. we’ll see about that. i confirmed that the issue was beyond my scope and threw it to the appropriate team ensuring i updated everything i’ve done. this way, i’ll help the next team, owning the call and cut down on the delay faced by the distraught user.

as i am sitting down and smiling smugly to myself on a job well done, i hear 3 distinct beeps. what’s this?!! THREE CALLS ALL AT ONCE!!!!! man, the day just got better! crunch time people. i open the cases to study them. two seemed normal. no worries there. then, i open the 3rd and i’m struck by the issue stated. user wants to what??? change server? why, this is not possible. then i calm myself down and put my thinking (more like Jedi mind-reading) cap on. oh, i think, what he wants is to transfer a device from one server to another. no biggie. i’ll just drop him a mail on the details needed. *crash* i hit a brickwall!!! what in the holy blue banana blazes is this…the user is in Australia but the country was listed in Singapore. another fantastic attempt by the helpdesk to waylay my efforts. HAH!!! i won’t be taken so easily this time, suckers.

sorry if i make my job sound glamourous and adventurous. au contraire, it’s ok and i sorta enjoy it. i have nice team mates (all pretty ladies except for a few other blokes) and it’s like a small family, but fantastic flying fishes from Planet Fadidoo, sometimes i feel like wringing the necks outta my users and the helpdesk. hehe. just kidding, but if they keep this up. i’m gonna predict my life expectancy, will drop by another 10 years. i can almost feel my life force seeping away. sucked by these ‘vampires’ at my otherwise mundane job.

/end of job rant. thanks for reading