life, my teacher
if there is one thing i learned from a young age, it’s to never hope too much. the more you hope and expect, the more painful the experience. that’s not to say i don’t hope at all. after all, it’s said that this was all that was left in Pandora’s box, which slipped into this material world.
my latest lesson in life has been a sobering experience. initially, i thought of keeping it inside, but i think Blue Angel is right. opening up is part of the healing process, they say. 5 years…5 years of building and maintaining a relationship. lot of sweat, blood and tears involved and it comes to an abrupt end. i admit, things were never really stable, but it provided me with a false sense of security. at least i was spared the rat-race in life, for a moment.
it’s ironic how the unstable relationship actually survived 2 year of long distance relationship (LDR). i guess i was getting too comfortable and as a Capricorn, we tend to stick to the ‘tried and tested’ paths. was it worthwhile? you betcha! i learnt many things from this relationship and i hope the experience has been mutual. two individuals can never really agree on everything, but with a little love and luck, things can grow. thus was my case.
frankly speaking, i don’t really know if we can remain friends, although i would like to think we could. it’s just one of those unwritten rules in broken relationships 101. i guess time will tell if both of us will ever grow out of this phase. i apologize for the incoherence in my posts, but that is exactly what is going on in my head now. i’ll blog more later. brains need a little rest.
As a fellow capricorn, i feel bad for you that after having invested 5 years in the relationship, the end result was not what you expected. You must be going through a lot of pain friend but i’m sure that you will come out of it. As they say there is a silver lining around evry dark cloud. We capricorns have this tendency to be true and stay commited in relationships and sometimes it hurts. I’ve been through a similar expereince myself so i can understand what you must have gone through. Mine started as a Long Distance Relationship too. May god give you the strength to quickly come out of it and move on in life. After all you get to live once right so take a chill pill and look forward to a new beginning!
it’s not the LDR factor Yvy. it is something beyond that, and it really sucks that it was the cause of it to end. anyway, i think i need some time off to reflect. hopefully, i will get that later. good luck in your LDR, Yvy. it’s tough, but it can work and you will be stronger for having gone through it.
Vineet: i know what you’re talking about man. capricorns unite!
*hugs*
*hugs* thanks Yvy…you people must be thinking, ‘what-lah’. start posting those crap stuff again right? well, i’ll try my best okayz. life goes on.
just read this post man… the last paragraph… i think over time both parties grow out of that phase and learn to be great frens like it was before this.
its sad indeed to be broken after 5 years. 5 years is a BIG number. But u can definately pull thru this man. Give it time and u’ll be fine. take care.
like what i told shan….i’m telling u too. grief n move on. no use wasting time brooding over ppl who dont see you for the gem u are. if definitely not ur loss. it’s hers.
awww guys and gals, that’s real nice of you! yeah, trying to shrug off the depression right now. i’m giving myself a week to be a baby about it and then move on. you know what? this whole blog theraphy thing is working for me. i say, LET IT OUT PEOPLE!
haha… yes… it really does work. i feel so pissed sumtimes and bloggin helps me filter it out. haha… the joys ur blogging. take care.
I totally, 100% understand. One step at a time, healing and blogging does seem to help. I am not enjoying have entered the rat race either.
nicole, your blog is BEAUTIFUL! i really mean it. *grins* it also helps that you are a coffee addict. welcome aboard the Coffee Club Anonymous.
Bryce reminds me of Louie. a close family friend’s kid. Guin is lovely and i can almost imagine the "NO". *smiles* but the best of the lot, i love golden retrievers too, but sadly, malaysia’s hot and humid climate would kill these lovely dogs. i also love huskies. sigh.
Thanks Nawooz. My blog seems to be taking its own life path, I’m simply the hand writing. It’s weird. I look at it and go, huh, it is really pretty.
Yours is as well. It’s nice to know, no matter where you are and what you go through, we’re all the same, living and loving and musing. It’s a reminder we’re all connected.
no need for the thanks *blush* we all need to find solace in life. i guess blogging seems to be our much needed respite, when things get too good or bad. a toast to life. cheers