life, my teacher
if there is one thing i learned from a young age, it’s to never hope too much. the more you hope and expect, the more painful the experience. that’s not to say i don’t hope at all. after all, it’s said that this was all that was left in Pandora’s box, which slipped into this material world.
my latest lesson in life has been a sobering experience. initially, i thought of keeping it inside, but i think Blue Angel is right. opening up is part of the healing process, they say. 5 years…5 years of building and maintaining a relationship. lot of sweat, blood and tears involved and it comes to an abrupt end. i admit, things were never really stable, but it provided me with a false sense of security. at least i was spared the rat-race in life, for a moment.
it’s ironic how the unstable relationship actually survived 2 year of long distance relationship (LDR). i guess i was getting too comfortable and as a Capricorn, we tend to stick to the ‘tried and tested’ paths. was it worthwhile? you betcha! i learnt many things from this relationship and i hope the experience has been mutual. two individuals can never really agree on everything, but with a little love and luck, things can grow. thus was my case.
frankly speaking, i don’t really know if we can remain friends, although i would like to think we could. it’s just one of those unwritten rules in broken relationships 101. i guess time will tell if both of us will ever grow out of this phase. i apologize for the incoherence in my posts, but that is exactly what is going on in my head now. i’ll blog more later. brains need a little rest.
