Chapter 29: it’s good to be alive at times like these
i survived my 24th birthday bash, but not unscathed. i still bear the scars from my ‘ruthless’ colleagues. i loved all the gifts (thanks Kym and Yuen Chi!) and also the time spent with all of them. it was only last year, that everyone except a select few actually remembered my birthday and my parents were, sadly, not in that list. must have been the stress or something. anyways, this year seems to have kicked of in slow-mo but hopefully gaining momentum towards bigger and better things. i’m lost now as to what i actually wished for before blowing out the candles. well, i guess it’s coz i am at a very ‘lost’ period, yet again!! hopefully, my birthday fairy will be able to sort through the jumbled wish and grant me all of them? ha-ha. greedy lil’ me.
for now, i guess i wish for companionship. it’s funny how i started out super independent but have come to taste the essence of a relationship and in a blink of an eye, i am left here alone again. the question i ask myself so ever often is, where do i go from here now? every step i take forward seems to place me two steps behind. maybe all i need is a change in environment. i have thoughts of migrating. wonder if it will be anytime soon. somewhere i can start life afresh. like a caterpillar shedding it’s pupa for a butterfly perhaps?
i miss having someone i can pour my scorn and complaints to. a confidante, who will listen, while i unload my heart and soul. is it really healthier to share your problems with someone? in my case, i guess everyone here knows whats up. i do receive a wee bit of comfort in my blogs. it’s the only form of escapism i can afford right now. so to all you bloggers out there, blog on and blog away. let’s share this little comfort all around.
emo: over-spirited or was it the Thai dinner acting up? spicy food and eccentric, late night blogging does not work well i guess.
