Chapter 18: love across oceans
you know what’s the most difficult thing in a long distance relationship. it’s the effort to maintain it. the physical and aural needs are left in hunger and yearning. you can’t see the person’s face or body gestures for some signs of distress or otherwise. it’s a guessing game and a hit-or-miss situation half the time. it’s worse when, there is no clear path of communication.
i don’t do to well on the net or phone conversations due to this. i miss the human factor. then there is the question of trust. all relationships are built on varying degrees of trust. the higher the level of trust, the more intimate the relationship. which is why i always say, there is a fine line between really good friends from the opposite sex and being soulmates. most of the time, there is nothing much left to know about the person and you are comfortable enough to tell the person your deepest, darkest secrets and thoughts without the fear of being ridiculed.
on the other hand, i found that learning about the person after committing to a relationship can be interesting as well. it’s the aura of mystery and surprise whenever a new trait or habit is revealed. this of course, has it’s ups and downs. the partner may exhibit habits, which go against your personal principles or may exceed your wildest expectations. i think i can safely, say i’ve succeeded thus far as i try to accept the whole ‘package’ without much hu-ha.
everyday is a new test or patience and endurance. everyday a blessing and curse. now i know what they mean by the pleasure of pain. i still count my blessings so long as things work out in the end. if it doesn’t, then i’ll have to start all over in this vicious game we humans like to call Love.
emo: neutral…i guess i’m in a don’t care-ish mood. DNDC = DunNo Dun Care (Don’t Know and Don’t Care)
