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the past week has been stress and emotion-filled. things have not been looking good for sometime but it was bearable. not quite so now. i’ve got that sinking feeling. relationships on the ice. frozen and lifeless. reaching out is not an option. time to retreat into my asylum.

away from all the hurt and haunting thoughts. lock the doors and shut the windows. even so, you can almost make out the lurking shadow beneath the door. hide and stay quiet. it will go away. it will come to pass. but when, how and why play in my head.

i’m listening to the Goo Goo Dolls now. The soundtrack is taken of the City of Angels movie titled “Iris”. i’ve taken a snippet which i find close to my heart:

“…and I don’t want the world to see me,

cause i don’t think that they’d understand,

when everythings made to be broken,

i just want you to know who i am”

often, individuals seek to be recognized. by family, friends, colleagues and the society, in general. results can vary greatly depending on your package or presentation to the world. some may accept you for who you are, while others may condemn you. they fear and revile the unknown, the different, and that, which they don’t understand. i only need one Hope from which i draw my Strength. i just want you to know who i am. i don’t care how much others hurt me, as long as you know the real me.

emo: distressed and far away, heartsick