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since yesterday, life has been hell for me. my work is really beginning to wear me thin. i’m keeping things low now. i know i’m gonna blow soon and i hope it won’t have to come to this. thinking about it just screws my mind anyways. enough of the chit-chat. let’s get on with some interesting stuff, well in my opinion of course.

well, June dropped by to do some long awaited catching up. time flies when you’re on the same wavelength i guess. thanks June for pulling me out of my mundane and monotonous work. hope eddy and you get a kick outta my blog. nothing much ‘cept my rants and breakdowns, but it feels real good to let it out on e-paper man. i miss having my close friends around me. thankfully i’m blessed with some awesome ones, who actually don’t mind the notorious NawooZ. hehe. oh, mermaid! remember to tell eddy i’ll be interested in investing in that business. hope he doesn’t mind my meagre contribution though. it was really good to see you again after so long and i’ll take you up on your offer for that movie in a heartbeat, but i’m worried i’ll be a lamp post. about time you introduced me to someone ehh haahaha. i can almost see that darn smirk on eddy’s face. wipe it out you lucky bugger. i know you got her, but doesn’t change the fact you will be eating my DUST!!!

well, on to my colleagues blog. seems like our blogs have some tendency towards relationship issues. well, one advice, if you take it, nothing ventured…nothing gained. stop listening and start doing. hahaha. she has some cool points in her blog too, but i am sworn to secrecy at the moment.

i’m feeling this sense of impending doom approaching up ahead in my life. can almost smell it. too much to think about. too much to do. i wonder how people cope all the time. i mean, i’ve survived but barely. still got some ghosts from the past chasing me. just the other day, while at work, i figured why people actually pick a stick and light it. i had a similar urgency to release some of that built-up frustration. so knowing i can’t smoke for jack even if my life depended on it, i went down and bought a pack of gums and sat at a bench out front my workplace and started chewing while watching people around. i think i should do this more often. after all, i usually skip lunch and i’m still entitled to a ciggie break just like the smokers. haha. irony. this is going to develop into some unhealthy shit, i’m predicting. but who cares. i’m not gonna go around killing my lungs or others for that fact. wonder what i can substitute for alcohol. soft drinks are out of the question. too much sugar. i’ve tried drinking more water these days, which explains the frequent trips to the loo. my bladder works overtime in my opinion. some say that’s a good sign, i say it’s a curse in it’s own right.

i’ve got too many things in my damn head today but i can’t organise it down. shoot! well, i guess my readers will have to excuse my incoherence the next couple of days? weeks? maybe months? i feel like i’ve been hit by a freight train. alright, signing off here. i think i’m gonna do some heavy workout.

emo: it’s rare i cuss in my notes, but i’m pretty f*cked  the past few days. need to sleep i guess. damn insomnia is killing me.