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it suddenly dawned on me when i was reading my previous post not like 5 minutes ago. to all those in depression but have Faith, why are we here? what is the purpose of our existence if only for a fleeting moment in this journey we call Life. for those seeking intimacy or companionship, where is that one person on the Earth who was destined for you? could it have been that stranger who smiled at you across the street, eyes locked on for just a glimmer of a second. was it that person you stood next to in the bus?well, we would never really know would we. unless of course we chose to live life and take the chance. smile back at the stranger. strike a conversation with the person on the bus. this is all fine and dandy on e-paper, but it is not usually feasible in flesh. why is that so? our preconception programmed by the media? or we are too busy in our lives to actually notice the guy shyly looking your way. or the lady stealing glances at you whilst you’re browsing through the aisles looking for groceries.

don’t lose Hope. after all, it was Hope which was left in the Pandora’s Box. that is why they call it Destiny. something for my readers to ponder. “Why, are we here?”

emo: still melancholic 

how did the word monday bluez come about i wonder? but i sure am feeling it. 2 days of paintball in the Ampang Super 5 has taken it’s toll. the last damage check, 13 bruises all over my body. not to mention one hit like a thumb away from my earlier ’souvenir’ 3 days previously. pain and pleasure coarses through my veins now. it was a bitter sweet victory. my personal team did not do exactly fantastic due to lack of communications. strangely enough, i was offered to play with my senior team and this was the total opposite. we reached the finals and played our newest addition to the paintball family. i’ll recap the feeling briefly, 5 man from opposite sides of the field take up their position - The Break. heart racing and adrenaline pumping. tense muscles await the air horn to signal the match to end all matches. rain droplets trickle of my spherical lense and then it’s on! i run and slide to my bunker and start firing away like there is no tommorrow. in a blink of an eye it was all over. we had conceded the championship to our brothers. we still had the runners up title. not too bad in a days work. so you can understand now my apprehensiveness of coming back to my mundane job.

another interesting occurance out of my usual working hours…i joined my fellow colleagues out for lunch after a long abscence. it felt good just to get out of the freezing office and stretch. let my eyes rest on the lush greenery instead of the flashing colors of my monitor. i was lulled by the conversation they had over lunch. sigh, small things of contentment. i think i should do this more often.

i have chosen to add a little something to my blog. emotions. each post will be followed by the current mood/emotions i am feeling at that moment. todays emo is melancholic.

till next time…later