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ever had that feeling you have experienced that exact same setting and event before? well, to tell you all the truth, i get that everyday. i get up, get ready for work, gobble down my meagre breakfast, travel to work, work, prepare to go home, wash up, have my dinner and sleep. i not only have one particular deja vu recollection. it’s a tape stuck in replay mode everyday.

but seriously, i have had many funny incidences involving deja vu feelings and premonitions. somehow, it turns really ugly if i choose to ignore that voice in my head or is it my heart? my best recollection was the time i was about to leave home to catch the train to college. i was running pretty late but somehow, as i was about to leave my room, the ‘Voice’ told me to grab a bunch of tissue papers. now, this seemed really an absurd thought at that moment and so i chose to ignore it. fast forward 15 minutes later in the train. i am desperately digging around my backpack looking for a tissue as i had a nasty cut from one of the train’s sliding doors and was bleeding profusely from my right index finger. i asked the lady sitting beside me if she could spare me one but she did not have any on her. odd considering the fact that most ladies actually keep a pocket-sized packet of tissue ready at all times. in the end, i had to rip some paper from a book and used it to stop the bleeding as best as i could. so much for NOT listening to the ‘lil ‘Voice’.

trust your heart. it may sound totally crazy at times, but i believe in my heart. the head uses too much logic and this does not always help as life is lived emotionally and not logically at times. this is coming from the so called level-headed and rational Capricorn. Ha-ha-ha. funny? u think so? good! this will be another topic close to my heart. humour, and for my fellow Americans, humor. i cater for all ; )

thanks for tuning in…God Bless

emo today: bubbly in a restraint way (yea yea…it sounds contradictory, bite me) >.< 

it suddenly dawned on me when i was reading my previous post not like 5 minutes ago. to all those in depression but have Faith, why are we here? what is the purpose of our existence if only for a fleeting moment in this journey we call Life. for those seeking intimacy or companionship, where is that one person on the Earth who was destined for you? could it have been that stranger who smiled at you across the street, eyes locked on for just a glimmer of a second. was it that person you stood next to in the bus?well, we would never really know would we. unless of course we chose to live life and take the chance. smile back at the stranger. strike a conversation with the person on the bus. this is all fine and dandy on e-paper, but it is not usually feasible in flesh. why is that so? our preconception programmed by the media? or we are too busy in our lives to actually notice the guy shyly looking your way. or the lady stealing glances at you whilst you’re browsing through the aisles looking for groceries.

don’t lose Hope. after all, it was Hope which was left in the Pandora’s Box. that is why they call it Destiny. something for my readers to ponder. “Why, are we here?”

emo: still melancholic 

how did the word monday bluez come about i wonder? but i sure am feeling it. 2 days of paintball in the Ampang Super 5 has taken it’s toll. the last damage check, 13 bruises all over my body. not to mention one hit like a thumb away from my earlier ’souvenir’ 3 days previously. pain and pleasure coarses through my veins now. it was a bitter sweet victory. my personal team did not do exactly fantastic due to lack of communications. strangely enough, i was offered to play with my senior team and this was the total opposite. we reached the finals and played our newest addition to the paintball family. i’ll recap the feeling briefly, 5 man from opposite sides of the field take up their position - The Break. heart racing and adrenaline pumping. tense muscles await the air horn to signal the match to end all matches. rain droplets trickle of my spherical lense and then it’s on! i run and slide to my bunker and start firing away like there is no tommorrow. in a blink of an eye it was all over. we had conceded the championship to our brothers. we still had the runners up title. not too bad in a days work. so you can understand now my apprehensiveness of coming back to my mundane job.

another interesting occurance out of my usual working hours…i joined my fellow colleagues out for lunch after a long abscence. it felt good just to get out of the freezing office and stretch. let my eyes rest on the lush greenery instead of the flashing colors of my monitor. i was lulled by the conversation they had over lunch. sigh, small things of contentment. i think i should do this more often.

i have chosen to add a little something to my blog. emotions. each post will be followed by the current mood/emotions i am feeling at that moment. todays emo is melancholic.

till next time…later

it was by luck i was introduced to this blog site. thanks YC! now i have a place to call my own. ive had intentions of creating a blog for a long while but one of the recommended services didnt seem to want me, as the old bumper sticker goes, “Heaven Doesn’t Want Me, and Hell is Afraid I’ll Take Over”…anywayz, im here and now time to flood all my thoughts onto this clean sheet of e-paper. let the babble, banter, rants, complaints, mischief and gossip begin. this my readers, is Chapter 1.